tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post9087618067671305984..comments2023-08-06T04:09:45.468-07:00Comments on ...and hijinks ensued.: Found becomes lostPrincess Pointfulhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10911296163218358167noreply@blogger.comBlogger22125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-60375513023107531432007-10-23T07:42:00.000-07:002007-10-23T07:42:00.000-07:00it is crazy to imagine what past loves are doing n...it is crazy to imagine what past loves are doing now. especially ones you were so close to for years and years.<BR/><BR/>i'm scared for this dream of clancy to come years down the road for me. so scared.Michelle and the Cityhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02376890270664282390noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-51062010586566866442007-10-19T10:21:00.000-07:002007-10-19T10:21:00.000-07:00This one hit close to home for me as well. Going ...This one hit close to home for me as well. Going through high school, I was lucky to count 2 best friends. One guy, one girl. The girl and I, as you two did conversed for hours on end, never about the regular hum drum of high school life, but bigger things in the world and what lay ahead for us. <BR/><BR/>There were feelings that developed but for a myriad of reasons we never got together. Recently shes taken a departure from the norm and for lack of better terms has gone off the deep end in terms of her expectations of friendships and state of mind.<BR/><BR/>This girl was the love of my life as well as my best friend. It was so hard to see her go through it and harder to be the subject of unfair expectations. Eventually, I had a choice to make and blew it up.<BR/><BR/>I rarely if ever hear from her now and I get updates and each time I hear something new, it horrifies me. I wonder how it could have gotten to this point with her. From where were to where we are now, it's like different lifetimes... Le sigh. I just hope she finds a good place.Indiana Jameshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17773296726763525533noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-55849000964810879252007-10-19T02:16:00.000-07:002007-10-19T02:16:00.000-07:00What a fantastic story of young love. It seems tha...What a fantastic story of young love. It seems that it rarely lasts - often for the reasons you have given. I wonder what nastiness made this change, and whether it is worth meeting up with him to find out.Ultra Toast Mosha Godhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05450892955592722188noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-74364884590239579292007-10-18T14:50:00.000-07:002007-10-18T14:50:00.000-07:00Eric- I am familiar with Syd Barrett. Interesting ...Eric- I am familiar with Syd Barrett. Interesting analogy. Although I'm sure for a lot of people it is just a run-of-the-mill tale, it does feel tragic to me.<BR/><BR/>Miriam- It probably is a good idea, otherwise it would have been much more painful. That doesn't mean I am happy we lost contact, though.<BR/><BR/>Ant- I don't know that I necessarily have more darker characters in my life, so much as that I tend to be the person of choice for people to open up to about such things. I have kind of been the eternal psychologist for much of my life, making it fitting that I ended up here.<BR/><BR/>I may be mistaken, but I do really believe there was some brilliance underneath it all. I'd experienced adolescent "love" before, and it was a little more than what that could account for.<BR/><BR/>Sheila- So very true. What a poignant image.<BR/><BR/>Beth- I am so sorry for your loss. It is those losses that never make sense in the grand scheme of things.<BR/><BR/>Abbey, Lisa and AMC- Thanks so much! This was a bit of an intense post for me to write, so I'm happy you enjoy it.<BR/><BR/>Martini- Thanks for stopping by! I will be headed your way soon!<BR/>The way it turned out, it looks as though there may be concrete evidence of that spark, hey?<BR/><BR/>NamesAreHardToPick- I am intrigued that you intrinsically picked up on the other side of this story. I can't guess how troubling it must be on the other end to know you are invoking such emotions in others... though I'm sure I am the last person on his mind in that domain now.<BR/><BR/>PsychGrad- As I said above, as the eternal psychologist, I do the exact same thing. I think I had a bit of a complex for a while that I wasn't enough to save him. You have to let those kind of thoughts go, though.<BR/><BR/>Dorky Dad- Very true. Hopefully his sense of insight is still there.<BR/><BR/>Libby- yeah, I guess cultural shock along with whatever trauma would be a particularly dangerous combination.<BR/><BR/>Corky- Thanks! I do wonder if I'm ever going to find out the whole story. It would really help settle things in my mind, but, again, I am kind of the lower point of concern at this moment.<BR/><BR/>cdp- I'm touched that you had such a reaction. As I said, this felt pretty raw for me, too (and yours obviously triggered something in me, too). I do need to stop making you cry, though :(.<BR/>I heart you too. You are one fabulous blogette!<BR/><BR/>Crushed- Thanks for your hopeful words. I do like to think there is still something there, albeit likely a little hidden at this stage.<BR/><BR/>BeccaLynn- I wrote back on your blog :)<BR/><BR/>DG- Glad to hear things are better for him. Very stressful all the same.Princess Pointfulhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10911296163218358167noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-60446199548318835662007-10-17T18:57:00.000-07:002007-10-17T18:57:00.000-07:00Wow. That must be really hard watching someone yo...Wow. That must be really hard watching someone you love and care about go down a dark path. A guy I used to have the biggest crush on and kissed a couple of times when we were in middle school ended up getting heavily addicted to drugs in high school and ended up running away before he finally agreed with his parents to go to a rehab. Thankfully, he's much better now.DGhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00143682548577839207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-26349732803347328402007-10-17T18:52:00.000-07:002007-10-17T18:52:00.000-07:00Do you have an email address?Do you have an email address?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-27903713957711574462007-10-17T11:20:00.000-07:002007-10-17T11:20:00.000-07:00I'm sorry to hear he hasn't found himself again.Ge...I'm sorry to hear he hasn't found himself again.<BR/><BR/>Genius can be a lonely place- it's hard when only you really follow your own thoughts, I guess.<BR/><BR/>The spark can be brought back- but only he can do it.<BR/>If he finds the incentive.Crushedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02479751225625007588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-52456076266737739822007-10-17T08:21:00.000-07:002007-10-17T08:21:00.000-07:00I love reading you too. And obviously my mind is s...I love reading you too. And obviously my mind is still very much where it was when I wrote that, because this had me in tears. <BR/><BR/>You have such an incredible writing talent. <BR/><BR/>And I heart you a lot.cdphttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11075048278389213507noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-57198901971076202802007-10-17T04:29:00.000-07:002007-10-17T04:29:00.000-07:00Great post!I'm curious about his situation and exp...Great post!<BR/><BR/>I'm curious about his situation and experience in India... If you ever find out please share it with us.captain corkyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10782650450297504567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-87472355245079431232007-10-16T21:53:00.000-07:002007-10-16T21:53:00.000-07:00loved the post. its probably a huge adjustment fo...loved the post. its probably a huge adjustment for him to be back here...especially after being in such a different world with different lifestyles/perspectives/values in India.<BR/><BR/>I hope the 'old him' breaks through soon!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-59474587096142907482007-10-16T21:33:00.000-07:002007-10-16T21:33:00.000-07:00Fascinating. Actually, it sounds like his life wou...Fascinating. Actually, it sounds like his life would probably make one heck of a book some day. I hope he's gone through that dark period, though ...Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02737980462115396236noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-51870057164831149372007-10-16T17:52:00.000-07:002007-10-16T17:52:00.000-07:00That's quite the experience. It is very hard to w...That's quite the experience. It is very hard to watch a friend or someone you love/loved become a shadow of themselves. <BR/><BR/>I tend to always want to solve people's problems or say whatever needs to be said to make things turn around for them. Of course, it doesn't exist. I think Miriam is right...maybe it sounds harsh, but it was probably wise for you to go in your own direction as you started university. <BR/><BR/>On a different thought (brought about by your post)- I totally screwed myself by telling a few people I know about my blog. Now I can't write about these kind of personal experiences.PGhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02160883537054763513noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-53164896365707305632007-10-16T13:59:00.000-07:002007-10-16T13:59:00.000-07:00I read this post and in some ways I almost wondere...I read this post and in some ways I almost wondered if you were someone I know talking about me except the drugs and India. But there is a girl I know who is very concerned about my current state and believe me - being on the other side - I try not to make her worry.<BR/><BR/>Nonetheless, that was eye opening reading it from the other side. I can definitely feel the emotion in your writing as that was beautiful. I hope all goes well with him and that your fears will be calmed.t.k.fosterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07885392861916837443noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-69160400550245532602007-10-16T12:25:00.000-07:002007-10-16T12:25:00.000-07:00You know, you really do have a kick-ass way of wri...You know, you really do have a kick-ass way of writing. Straight from the off I'm hooked. It really is a pleasure reading your posts.The Author Of Thishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01050022130807345712noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-74254873461843405282007-10-16T10:41:00.000-07:002007-10-16T10:41:00.000-07:00Excellent story. I, myself have dreamed of a speci...Excellent story. I, myself have dreamed of a special someone, someone who did not become my highschool sweetheart, but I wish she had. Back in those days I found myself defending her, and wondered why I was practically the only person who saw her brightness.<BR/><BR/>She is now a national reporter for CTV. So I still get to see her all the time, so to speak.Martinihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06428760809058039675noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-61790306537672887202007-10-16T09:57:00.000-07:002007-10-16T09:57:00.000-07:00I love reading you.I love reading you.Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11087200626472121404noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-15484838825512229822007-10-16T09:12:00.000-07:002007-10-16T09:12:00.000-07:00Great post.Great post.Abbeyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01338660653004655997noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-29729435388067506992007-10-16T09:03:00.000-07:002007-10-16T09:03:00.000-07:00I had friends like that from university - full of ...I had friends like that from university - full of laughter, creative, bordering on genius. Sadly, some have now been diagnosed manic-depressive - two committed suicide. Such a loss.Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14110235078325434919noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-48680496550940412072007-10-16T08:00:00.000-07:002007-10-16T08:00:00.000-07:00I believe the eyes are truly windows to the soul. ...I believe the eyes are truly windows to the soul. My "first love" was in High School. He began doing drugs and one day as I looked into his eyes, they seemed so dark and empty. The boy with the beautiful smile was no longer there. It frightened, sickened and saddened me. <BR/><BR/>I distanced myself from him and lost touch with him. I saw him again a few years later and he seemed a little better. That was years ago, but I still think about him from time to time, wondering how he is, how his life is going.<BR/><BR/>Hopefully your friend will find his way out of the darkness. Perhaps when he does, you two can be acquainted once again.Sheilahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06627100891908577662noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-69320797247140133432007-10-16T05:22:00.000-07:002007-10-16T05:22:00.000-07:00Damn. That was moving. You seem to have a lot of t...Damn. That was moving. You seem to have a lot of these dark tales from friends and exes - more than your fair share I think...<BR/><BR/>Innocence lost can be one of the cruelest parts of life - but I think Eric's right, he was possibly on a course to this mindset anyway, drugs or no. There's also the possibility that you remember the spark that he had through rose-tinted spectacles, but were young enough and in love enough not to see his bleaker characteristics?Anthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09303340501621622951noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-55927340849082345342007-10-16T04:45:00.000-07:002007-10-16T04:45:00.000-07:00Wow. That's powerful. I hope he really does find a...Wow. That's powerful. I hope he really does find all of himself one day. And maybe it was a good thing that you were able to grow away from that relationship.Miriamhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07184253965335775315noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7246838997491107294.post-2671770578111702222007-10-15T22:04:00.000-07:002007-10-15T22:04:00.000-07:00I love the title of this post. Very evocative of t...I love the title of this post. Very evocative of the situation you describe.<BR/><BR/>Sounds like you are a fine judge of people. Also have to say there's nothing wrong with joints, home made wine and giant maps of the world!<BR/><BR/>It's heartbreaking when stories like this unfold in the theater of the real. Syd Barret of Pink Floyd was just such a troubled genius. He was their original singer/guitarist, their founding member to be exact and main songwriter, but only on their first album, Piper at the Gates of Dawn. He became embroiled in hallucinogens and grew more and more unstable until eventually becoming "barking mad" as some have put it--schizophrenic, clinically speaking. <BR/><BR/>There was always debate as to weather the drugs caused it, but it's generally agreed that they only sped him along what would have happened anyway. What is know is that when he tried to quit drugs, his "friends" (not the band members, actually) who he lived with would put LSD in his morning tea and start him tripping anyway, to 'help him lighten up', as they put it.<BR/><BR/>He eventually lost his song writing ability all together. But, he became the Floyd's main source of inspiration for many albums to come, Dark Side of the Moon, Wish You Were Here, and much of The Wall. <BR/><BR/>Sorry to relate this one to you. But the way you described C, I was reminded deeply of Syd Barret. I hope he does recover for everyone's sake involved.eric1313https://www.blogger.com/profile/13807078704660045859noreply@blogger.com